Yesterday marked the 2 year post-treatment for Max! We spent the day celebrating with each other, and remembering our journey. We all realize how lucky we have been, and we remembered those that we have met on the journey that haven’t had the same great outcome as Max.
It is incredible to say that he has made it two years without a relapse. In terms of cancer, that is huge! Each day that he is cancer free, he is one day closer to a CURE.
As a mom, the worry never goes away. The carefree lives that we once lived, are a thing of the past, although with each day out, we get to experience more and more carefreeness….(is that even a word?)
I sometimes still break down and cry, and then I feel guilty having the anxiety I do because I know that Max is thriving, and many others are not, or have lost their fight. I think about all the families we have met, and I am sad to say that I can count on MORE than one hand the number of heaven angels now. I think of those parents, those siblings, those friends, and I want to take away all their pain…but I know that I can’t.
I think about yesterday being a celebration for Jack too…he got his life back in many of ways. He had to stop everything, move away from his friends, miss school, and everyday revolved around Max, his treatments, his blood counts, his medicines, blah, blah, blah.
We tried very hard to make sure that Jack was very much the focus, and that he got just as much undivided attention as Max. I am sure, we will be supporting some therapist at some point down the road. Hey, we all try only to mess up our kids just a little right?
In many ways, cancer taught us how to live. It taught us how to laugh, and it taught us how to love. Really live, really laugh, and really love. It taught us that we are not guaranteed tomorrow, and so we have to make the most of today. You have this day! Go make it great!!